If someone had asked me at the age of 20 what I wanted my life to look like by the age of 34, I would have said something along the lines of … ‘Married, with 2 or 3 kids, own my own home, successful career and world travelled.’
Losing both of my parents would not have been one of things that would have included in my life plan.
But at the age of 27 I lost my mum, very suddenly, to a brain aneurysm. She was 57.
And at the age of 33, 3 days before my 34th birthday, I lost my dad to pneumonia but the underlying cause of death was due to Kennedy’s Disease (a rare type of motor neuron disease) he was 73.
Some would say that I have seen my fair share of death and I wish I could say that it is the end of the death experience that I will be exposed to in my life but unfortunately that is not how life works.
If there is one thing in life that is guaranteed, it is death.
I have wanted to write about death and grief for a while now but some how could never find the words to say. Would anyone even care about what I had to say? Would anyone even read my blog? Death and grief are so unique to the individual why would anyone want to read about my experiences?
Although I had so many ‘what if’ questions, I have decided that through my experiences, even if just one person reads my blog, even if just one person finds what I say useful then I would have done my job. The one thing that I truly wanted when I first lost my mum was to know that there was someone else out there that had been through my pain.
So although this is my story, I hope to share some of the experiences and lessons I have learned along the way of this grief journey. I hope you’ll join me on my journey as I try to search and make sense of this world.
Finding my anchors is about finding oneself when they suddenly feel like they have lost their sense of self. It is about finding my purpose, who I am and direction in life after losing the two people who I thought would always be here, who I thought would always be my anchors, who I thought I would always have in my corner.